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Friday, February 03, 2006

Marion's Day Off.


Well, it was, and it wasn't. Today, I made no art. I slept a lot, snacked a bit, drank copious amounts of (decaf) coffee, and was generally self indulgent. However, I did do quite a bit of thinking. I've been invited to submit work to an ezine, and I spent time pulling together the gist of what I was going to write about. I also did myself a big favour. I asked for help.

I rarely ask for help, even when I really need it. I do my best to hide how I feel, or what I need, as if somehow, it was a weakness to admit that I can't do everything, or don't know everything. Recently, the depression has been In Charge, and that makes asking for help even harder. Depression changes my world into a place where I have no value, life has little meaning and perfection isn't good enough. It affects everything, including the art, and it is difficult to get out of that dark place. I've been fortunate enough to have a little help recently to see that, to be reminded that change is possible, and it has been invaluable. I feel as if there is light at the end of my particular tunnel, and no, it's not an oncoming train!

So, today, I made a phone call. I talked to a lovely potter, who is willing to teach me the basics of pottery, one to one, so that I can make some raku with confidence that it won't explode in the kiln...and give me some advice on the kind of equipment I need. I have wanted to do this for a very long time, and finally, I have made it happen. Amongst other things, I'm hoping to make small embellishments for my work...and some elements for 3D raku/texile pieces. Wish me luck in my new adventure!

6 comments:

Valeri said...

Well I do wish you luck. Its no sin to ask for help. We all need help at one time or another. The big secret is knowing when! And doing something about it. I shall be interested to see how the pottery turns out. Something to look forward to.

Anonymous said...

It takes courage to ask, but more to take the help that is offered sometimes. Pottery is the perfect craft- it has all 5 elements within it -fire, in the kiln; water, to make the clay move; earth, the clay; wood, to fire the kiln; and metal, in the glazes....
I love Raku...
H

joann said...

I enjoyed reading all about you, you are progressing in your thoughts and life, depression seems to be a tool to bring forth a lot of beauty of your soul. Interesting as to how our minds grow even though trapped. Raku taught me so many wonderful experiences and is just peaceful. You so will enjoy it as it opens many more doors for creativity. Joann

Omega said...

I hope that the pottery provides you with good light.
Just in case you thought I wasn't going to get round to answering your question I now have the exact dates of the Rauschenberg: Combines exhibition.
Paris Oct4 '06- Jan 8 '07, and Stockholm Feb4 - April 29 '07. The show is on at the Metropolitan Museum in NY at present and is going on to LA after that.

marion said...

Thank you, folks, for the kind words. Much appreciated.
marion
who thinks Paris in October would be a damn fine thing, thanks Omega

thelmasmith said...

raku? oh! yes ! and the privilege of a guide and a kiln, yes, this is good